113 days ago, I was sitting at this very same table in Whistable.

Then, like now, it was the morning of departure following a break in this charming seaside town.

I have come a long way.

Instead of just a 30 break, I have fully embraced the AF life choice.

I have learned much over the last three and a half months.

I understand myself better.

I have learned how to blog and Instagram.

I have discovered a community of people I like and am inspired by online.

On a physical level, I would need a doctor or scientist to explain the changes in my body and brain chemistry.

I feel incredibly proud of myself, not just for stepping away from a dangerous and addictive drug but also for finding the open-mindedness to receive new information.

I confess I have always enjoyed the label of a rebel.

Since my teens, I have made choices that have caused The Establishment difficulties (parents, teachers etc) but mainly because they seemed to make sense to me. But, unfortunately, I was sometimes wrong, particularly surrounding the subject of alcohol and drugs.

Ironically, I am, yet again, a rebel concerning using one of these drugs, and I have never been more proud of myself for being so.

It can be challenging to go against the tide of public opinion.

Most people believe that alcohol is an essential ingredient in a happy and fulfilled life.

I think the absence of alcohol as an ingredient in a happy and fulfilled life is essential.

I am a rebel with a cause.

I am wishing me, and you, a happy and rebellious Christmas xx.