Day 542 – The Pain body.
What Eckart Tolle calls a pain body, others refer to as a wounded theme of consciousness. It is a clump of tangled negative energy brought into existence by my mind's naive interpretation of life's knocks and trapped within my being. A pain body can lie dormant for...
Day 509 – Themes of Consciousness
If I understand the mechanics of my car, I can fix it when it goes wrong. Likewise, if I understand the mechanics of a human being, I can fix myself when I go adrift. Here are the three steps I used to resolve my unhealthy dependency on alcohol. ONE I...
I haven’t stopped drinking; I have become a non-drinker.
I haven't stopped drinking; I have become a non-drinker. Those two things may seem the same, but they are profoundly different. A drinker tries to stop drinking, whereas a non-drinker just-doesn't-drink (There's a clue in the title) 'Stopping' is an action and comes...
Day 398 – Freedom
To be or not to be - Free? Autonomy Independence Emancipation Self-government Liberty Release Or Dependence Captivity Subjugation Enslavement Imprisonment So Peaceful vs Suffering On the world's political stage, these are words denoting the state of play for nations...
Day 388 – Reality
What do I think is real? Does thinking it make it so? I accept that the chair I sit on is real because I can A) see and B) feel it. I experience both confirmation senses via my brain. I am used to relying on my brain to tell me what is and what is not, and like...
Day 378 – Awakenings
Am I asleep right now? (Are you?) How could we be for I am writing and you are reading? Asleep is unconscious is unaware. Am I asleep? Maybe, but I am waking up. Sleep is that sublime place I adore drifting into at 9pm, and whence I emerge from 8 hours later,...
Day 371 – Expansion and Contraction and the Art of Letting Go.
I see a rhythm and pattern reflected repeatedly across the universe. Expansion followed by contraction. I notice this rhythm in my lungs as I breathe and my heart as it pumps. My whole life, from conception to death, reflects this cadence as first, I expand...
Day370 – Uncertainty
Cohabiting with uncertainty is a given. It is unavoidable. No one has a crystal ball. The future is unknown. Every moment, encounter, and situation has multiple variables. I can have a pretty good idea of what's coming next, but I can't be sure. So, one of my life's...
Day 361 – Space the inner frontier
My sober Life is an adventure of non-stop discovery. It is so exciting. It is like regularly finding a million quid stuffed down the back of the sofa and realizing it's been there forever and it's mine to use. I've started spending! I recently delved my hand down the...
Day 340: Judge not
I have never felt comfortable with the following scripture: "Judge not, or you too will be judged" (Matthew 7:1) It has always felt 'off', and I didn't quite get it. Reminiscent of a school playground threat: "If you do that to them, well, I'll do it to you! So...