Day 10 – A shite day
Not a good day Not an easy day The bad voice in my head was loud. I struggled to stay focused. I waned and wobbled. Why? Who knows? Maybe the euphoria of these initial victorious days has a sell-by date and has ebbed? Maybe it’s a full moon. Maybe I am human? Maybe...
Day 9 – Re-Cap
Let’s take stock. I check my diary and count the days again! 9 My train has definitely left the station and the amazing, terrific, fantastic, brilliant -shall I go on? YES! – incredible, fabulous, IN-YOUR-FACE-ALCOHOL! news is that .. I have a ticket! AND, I am on...
Day 8 – Be selective about who you listen to (including yourself).
There is a voice in my head which can’t be trusted. In fact, it needs to be 100% ignored, and over time completely silenced. It is a lying, sabotaging, foolish bastard of a voice. I f***ing hate it! It is a voice that has always advocated for and encouraged my...
Day 7 – Welcome to the New World.
I am amazed and slightly disconcerted to find myself in a new world, surrounded by the familiar and yet not. Being sober for 7 days is reminiscent of a scene from the film ‘Matrix’, where Neo awakes into a new reality and asks why his legs are stiff. The reply comes:...
Day 6 – Self Care vs Self-Indulgence
The first thing I think of as I wake up: What number day is this? The second thing is: Oh my gosh! This is really happening! It’s like Christmas day every morning. This sober life is the gift that keeps on giving. Thank you! Thank you! I don’t want to get complacent....
Day 5 – Sober is ‘MORE’ not ‘less’
The headache is still with me, but bearable. I’m coping. Thankfully! 🙂 I LOVE this sober space which I’m occupying. Everything about it, including my body’s discomfort, feels right. Not necessarily easy though. I remain committed and focused. I am loving it. I feel...
Day 4 – I am cleansing, healing, and restoring.
Day 4 I feel horrible! The headaches have arrived 😬 Expected, but still unwelcome. It is a small price to pay for freedom from slavery and the slow ruination of all that I hold dear. It will pass 🙂 I will prosper 🙂 We’re told that every cloud has a silver lining. The...
Day 3 – Changing who I am – Upgrading
DAY 3 (Get in there!!!) Today is the 3rd day in my campaign to take back my life and return me, to me. Three days to someone else might seem inconsequential. But I know better. It is FLIPPING AWESOME! I am so happy (whilst keeping the overwhelm low). I am so...
Day 2 – You’re a winner! OMG! You’re on the move! This is awesome!
Day 2 OMG! I did it!!!!!! Day 1 in the bag! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! OMG! Brilliant! I have traction. My wheels are moving. My journey has started. Very occasionally in the past, I have managed to take a break from drinking. When ‘the planets were all...
Day 1 – I can do this. I am stronger than I think
I wake up on the morning of day 1. I remember the plan. Today I make an important change to my life. No more beer or wine. Today is the final day of my holiday and the day I set to quit. Previously I had set it to be the first day of my holiday (so that I would be...